confessions of an orkutlander.

1.Since I cant take his name,I will call him R.
R was one of those online entities,whose orkut profile did me good when i was extremely bored.The testimonials...aah ...so bhery phunny!..the social ,proffesional and erhem..personal sections..so nicely filled up.The photoalbum...Gawd...is he eyecandy or what!...ok so I scrapped him.(something I am particularly good at doing). and yes,he "do I know you" ed me back.Well no I dint know him ..(of course)..but i liked his profile..*yawn*..and he answers me back...."really?.......".......and then after the silly giggles and the *yawn* chat sessions comes the brain cracking observation..."commited"...duh uh..I was sooo busy observing his testimonials...dint really notice this particularly tiny detail.

point is that....I cant write anymore..what is he checks this blog post?...after all, my profile has the link.It could happen that he gets bored.[:-|].and decides to check my blog.

2."princess you come visiting my profile,and dont leave a scrap?..is that fair?"..well after a lot of heeeheee...and hahaha..(ya rite,I could answer that only and only with a few silly giggles)..so we exchange our yahoo messenger Ids..we chat and keep on chatting ....almost everyday...

one fine day...I get an offliner.."I am sorry ,my exams are going on,thats why I dont come online that often...I promise I will have a lot more time to spare after my exams get over"..like as if I am oh-so heart broken...that you dont come online regularly.[:-|]


one and a half months later...mind you ..the same person asks me out...and ya..I am game.
I am just waiting for my exams to start......and end of course..hihi..and after that I can go out on the much awaited date.So the exams start......and end...and then.......

The movie hall...the sheer awkwardness...the self blasting ....the aftermath...



and then comes the best part..."you know I am confused.You look cute.But you need to loose weight.Since I am such a fitness freak...I work out regularly..I would feel conscious with you around...there is nothing wrong in the way you look,but you need to loose weight...seriously...I dont want to *yawn* hurt your feelings".....


actually ,know what?..I cant really be hurt about the fact that I am over weight,and that I need to loose weight.I cant really be hurt about the fact that I screwed up my exams because of you.I cant really be hurt if you said you liked the way I talk*without inhibition*..and then decided that you will feel conscious with me around...why?..because I am over weight..There is nothing to be hurt about.Even if there is,....then I am used to it.

I wonder,why I am such a loser.

but am I?...on second thoughts..it is because of this very incident,that I realized I need to get a life.After that realization,I thought about updating my blog...then furthur realized that I have forgotten the password, user id..et all...so I started this new blog.:-)
(and I intend to update it regularly)..:-D